Today I wept openly at church. Each song felt poignant and timely. Each moment was marked with signfiance. The minister spoke of living in the presnt, of embracing today, and being truly yourself.
I wept for the heartache of the last month. I wept for the lost moments thinking of what could have been done or the future that I may still have. I wept for lonliness. I wept for fear. I wept for my mistakes and misgivings. I wept for the hardship of August and the carlessness of July. I wept for him. I wept for me. I let the tears stream down my face and run into my mouth. A dear friend once told me those are the best cries. I wept openly at church.
Today is my present. Right now, at this moment, I am sad. My heart aches and my mind, body, and spirit long for renewal. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is unknown. Today, right now, I weep and that’s ok. It is exactly where I need to be.
The sermon: http://www.firstuusandiego.org/Websites/firstuusandiego/images/sermons/GrayingGracefully.mp3
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I hope you get to a place in the present or future where you return to enjoying life and are content and happy. Good for you for feeling your feelings. Not many are that brave.
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graceelena Reply:
September 2nd, 2012 at 16:13
Thank you. I know I will reach a happy place and probably sooner than I think, but for now, I’m sad and I am not going to pretend I’m not.
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